I have recently discovered Good + as a way to be able to video chat will all my family at the same time. I love it! I keep trying to find new ways to not miss my family so much. I thought being able to see them would help. It is nice, but it does not feel the void. I was messaging my mom on facbook today. I haven't spoken to her in what feels like a while, even though it has only been about 2 weeks. I can't help but to miss her so much right now. People always tell me how lucky I am to be living in all of these cool places. Well perhaps I am, but what they don't see is how hard it is. Not only is the move and the cultural shock hard, there are so many things you miss about where you came from. And if you have a close family like mine, it is just so difficult sometimes.
There are a lot of things that will be happening in my life this year that I just can't seem to get out of my head. I lay in bed at night just thinking about the outcome of these things. I know it's not healthy but I can't seem to stop it.
On the plus side, I am so blessed! I know that I do not deserve all of the things I have in my life but I am sure grateful for them! I know I am all over the place with this one. I just have so many different emotions. And no, I am not pregnant. Its funny how every month someone in my family thinks that. To bad it will have to wait another year...
