6 months ago I had to say goodbye to the most dearest person to my heart not knowing under what circumstances I would see him again. The last night we had together the song "Daylight by Maroon 5" kept playing in my head. The next day, when I took him to the airport, my heart sank. I tried so very hard not to let him see how badly I was hurting. I walked him to the security check point and watched him turn the corner. Half of my heart went with him. I could barely breath. I used all the strength I had not to fall to the floor. I cried the whole way home. I got home and looked around the empty house. I kept trying to trick myself by saying "he will be home after work", just to get threw the day. But there is no tricking your heart; maybe your mind, but not your heart. I can remember that day like it was yesterday
I can't even imagine what it's like for spouses to have to go threw a 12 month deployment. I feel for them! I think God knew I wouldn't be able to handle a 12 month. But then again I didn't think I could handle a 6 month. Not saying I handled it gracefully or anything. There was lots of crying, why me's, taking things out on my husband, and stuffing my face until I couldn't anymore. But hey, how else do you get threw a deployment lol.
Today I am feeling the complete opposite. Today i am grateful. Today I am preparing for my husbands return. I can already feel my hearts other half coming back together. I get butterflies just thinking about seeing him in the airport. There is so much a girl has to do before her mans homecoming after 6.5 months, if you know what I mean ;). I hope and pray that we will grow even closer after this deployment. I am so in love with him it's unreal. And I am So Excited to be in his arms once more.
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